Identifying Self: Introduction

Over the past few months I have struggled with my identity. At times I have honestly asked the question "What do I like?" and not known the answer. I could come up with things I used to like, but really wasn't sure if I even liked them anymore.

I'm not exactly sure when my loss of identity began. Although it seems to have become more elusive as I have settled more into the role of wife and mother. I'm sure there are many mothers out there that can identify with this struggle to an extent. I began to feel that all of my likes had been altered to "like mores" of those things my husband and Oliver like. For example, I like Dinosaur Train more than Sid the Science Kid. And I like Smashing Pumpkins more than Deadmau5.

Not all of this is bad. Nathan has challenged me over the years, and has ultimately broadened the spectrum of things I like or can at least tolerate. I have also become a more independent thinking in the last few years, and have come to realize how I really feel and what I really believe about many important aspects of life. So, I have experienced new things, learned to like new things, and made some important decisions.

Maybe the question isn't so much about what I like, but more of what I love.

What do I love?

I love being a mother, and I love being a wife. Those 2 roles are my most important ones. They are a large part of who I am. They are not in any way in question.

What is in question are the things that make me individually me. Those are the things I am trying to identify. Those are the things I feel I need to get in touch with. Because I believe that if I can better identify myself I will feel more confident in being myself.

Thus begins my quest of "Identifying Self"